Title: Thank You
Prompt:“The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present." - Barbara De Angelis
Character: Obi-Wan Kenobi
Fandom: Star Wars
Word Count: 262
Rating: PG
Warnings: Bit spoilerish if you haven't read
Secrets of the Jedi by Jude Watson.
Disclaimer: George Lucas owns Star Wars. Lucas is King. If he doesn't like me pilfering his characters, he can have his merchandise back.
Summary: Obi-Wan meditates on his past, and on the one woman who taught him how to let go of the past so he could bring hope to the future.
Author's Notes: This was originally written for
fanfic100. Added a line or so for this rendition.
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He was meditating in his hut, sitting cross-legged, arms resting on his knees, eyes closed. The crystal Siri had given him rested in one hand, the warmth of it heavy on his skin. There was no way it could compete with the dry, scorching, sun-induced fever during the day, so he left this particular meditation for the deepest hours of night, when the air and the sand had given up their heat to rest in cool silence. He used this time to reflect on those that had been lost. It still overwhelmed him, sometimes, but as sudden and as violent as it had happened, he kept turning to her.
Would she have survived, had she not died so early on in the war? And if so, where would she be now? What would she be doing? Would they feel free to love one another, now that the formal institution of the Jedi had been demolished, or would they continue to cling to their ideals even now, in the loneliness of isolation?
Would he even tell her where he was hiding and for what purpose? Or would he leave her in the dark, as he had had to leave her one-time Padawan?
He meditates on these things, and more, knowing deep down that he would not be the person he is, the Jedi he is, had she survived that mission. She had taught him to live with an open heart, and to not let the pain of the past colour his perception of the present. And for that lesson, he thanks her continually.